incommodious

it's becoming a routine. these sleepless nights.
pretty inconvenient if u ask me.
i gotta get back to my normal sleeping hours..
but the biological clock doesnt wanna budge.
sigh ....

regrets

wish i had my current wisdom many many years ago when i was in standard 2.
if i knew then, what i know now, life wouldn't be this way.
i know that counterfactual reasoning is not productive but being human, i can't stop regretting.

no wonder Allah swt prohibits certain things that appear harmless because in the long run, the effect can be catastrophic.

now, all i gotta do is project what i could regret upon after being dead. this way, i can act accordingly and stop it from taking place in shaa Allah.

fatigue

one of those days when i'm too tired to do anything enjoyable. :)
it has been fulfilling, but exhausting as well.
so i wander like many, upon other blogs and what not.

normality

if u think that your life is weird, say no more.
well, u're not the only one who's feeling that way.
in fact, im willing to bet that everyone else feels the exact same way.

normality is an imaginary concept.
we believe that everyone else is leading a normal life except us.
problem is, the comparison works on a false pretence.

if everyone is unique in their own way, then how can normality ever be achieved?

literature

i used to believe that reading novels is a waste of time. :) do forgive me if this uncalled for remark appears to be somewhat offensive.

don't get me wrong, i admire the artistic expression and all, but the repetitive nature of certain novels, especially those specializing in romaunt, can be quite stultifying.

recently though, i've gotten my hands on a collection of 19th century literature revolving on sherlock holmes. it's a classic and never thought i'd say this.. but WOW.

im trying my best to cut down the time i spend on watching TV and investigative literature is a compelling alternative to that. gonna take back my words. novels ain't a bore if u know how to choose.

the best way to read sherlock holmes is to 'predict' the culprit and why he/she is so, via the clues hidden intricately within the novel. it keeps ur mind completely engaged. a definite wow indeed.

trade

sometimes, the best way to get what u want is by helping others get what they want.
it's some sort of a trade. but it's not just any trade, but rather, the kind that's completely guaranteed.


Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. daripada Nabi SAW, Baginda telah bersabda:
Barangsiapa yang melepaskan seorang mukmin daripada satu kesusahan daripada kesusahan-kesusahan dunia, nescaya Allah akan melepaskannya daripada satu kesusahan daripada kesusahan-kesusahan Qiamat. Barangsiapa yang mempermudahkan bagi orang susah, nescaya Allah akan mempermudahkan baginya di dunia dan di akhirat. Barangsiapa yang menutup ke’aiban seorang muslim, nescaya Allah akan menutup ke’aibannya di dunia dan akhirat. Allah sentiasa bersedia menolong hambaNya selagi mana dia suka menolong saudaranya. Barangsiapa yang melalui suatu jalan untuk menuntut ilmu, nescaya Allah akan mempermudahkan baginya suatu jalan menuju ke syurga. Sesuatu kaum tidak berkumpul di salah sebuah rumah-rumah Allah (iaitu masjid) sambil mereka membaca Kitab Allah dan mengkajinya sesama mereka melainkan suasana ketenangan akan turun ke atas mereka, rahmat akan melitupi mereka dan mereka akan di kelilingi oleh para malaikat dan Allah akan menyebut (perihal) mereka kepada orang-orang yang berada di sisiNya. Barangsiapa yang terlambat amalannya, nescaya nasab keturunannya tidak mampu mempercepatkannya.


so, r u good in something, that in shaa Allah, u can do it quicker and better than others?
if u are, then try helping people who are bad at doing it. try making their life easier and more serene.

then in shaa Allah, God will in turn help u in doing things that u are bad at. u know, bad things that u've tried many times to overcome without success. or bad habits that u believe to be indelible.

good things happen to people who do good things to others, even when sceptics deny it. nuff said.

awake

oh my, i've got a full day tomorrow.
and yet, these eyes do not tire.
of all the time to be awake ... sigh... it had to be now